everybody changing and I don't feel the same

dulu ku tertawa mendengar candaanmu

dulu ku senang menghabiskan waktu di perjalanan dengan membicarakan hal - hal tidak penting denganmu

dulu ku selalu menelpon jika terjadi masalah di rumahku sampai air mataku luber tak terbendung

dulu ku senang pergi bersama denganmu

tapi....

kini aku tak lagi senang mendengar candaanmu

engkau berubah, entah, mungkin aku yang sensitif

namun aku merasa ada keanehan

engkau berubah menjadi angkuh...

engkau bukan engkau yang dulu...

my dream vera wang wedding

aih aih aih

kalo ngomongin soal married, entah kenapa gue berasa seneng aja, semua orang senyum, dekorasinya bagus, bunga2 bertebaran, gaun gembung trus panjang, di taman, interiornya putih, ada unsur air, lilin, bunga dan kain...

aaaahhhhh...

serasa pengen married, tapi anyway wedding gown yang bener2 gue pengen itu VERA WANG im craving of it...

desainnya simpel tapi oke, bahannya juga bagus, dan ga banyak mote2 ato payet, aaaahhh dreams come true

please God,make it come true...!!!!

letters to juliet

"when you talk about love there is no too late"

love of siam

talking about thai movie, isn't only about the horror, many thai drama have a graet story too..

it's love of siam, it's a sad movie, but you can see the other side of love, and it makes me cry, A LOT

and the soundtrack is very good, because of one of the actor is a singer and make this song for the movie

it called "gun lae gun"

here is the lyrics

THAI : taa bok waa pleng nee dtaeng hai ter ter ja cheua mai man aat mai pror mai seung mai suay ngaam meuan pleng tua bpai yaak hai roo waa pleng rak taa mai rak gor kian mai daai dtae gap ter kon dee roo mai chan kian yaang ngaai … daai

ter kong koie dai-yin pleng rak maa nap roi pan man aat ja dohn jai dtae gor mee kwaam maai meuan-meuan gan dtae taa ter fang pleng nee pleng tee kian peua ter tao nan peua ter kao jai kwaam maai laew jai ja daai mee gan lae gan

hai man bpen pleng bon taang dern kiang tee ja mee piang siang ter gap chan yoo duay gan dtraap naan-naan dang nai jai kwaam bok nai ga-wee waa dtraap dai tee mee rak yom mee wang keu took krang tee rak kong ter song jai chan mee bplaai taang

mee kwaam jing yoo nai kwaam rak dtang maak maai lae tee paan maa chan chai way-laa peua haa kwaam maai dtae mai naan gor perng roo meua took krang tee mee ter glai waa taa chee-wit keu tam nong ter gor bpen dang kam rong tee pror lae seung jap jai

hai man bpen pleng bon taang dern kiang tee ja mee piang siang ter gap chan yoo duay gan dtraap naan-naan dang nai jai kwaam bok nai ga-wee waa dtraap dai tee mee rak yom mee wang keu took krang tee rak kong ter song jai chan mee bplaai taang mee taang dern hai rao dern kiang lae mee siang kong ter gap chan mee taang dern hai rao dern ruam kiang lae mee siang kong ter gap chan

ENGLISH : If I said that this song is made for you, would you believe it? It’s probably not melodious, not affectionate, not beautiful like other songs. I want you to know that if there’s no love, you can’t write a love song. But for you, my dear, do you know? I wrote it easily.

You’ve probably heard hundreds and thousands of love songs that’s probably impressive but with a similar meaning altogether, but if you listen to this song, a song that’s written simply for you. For you to understand the meaning of it, our hearts will then have a connection.

Let it be a song on our pathways that consist only voices of you and me. Together as long as possible. As the meaning is told in a poetry that as long as there’s love naturally there’s hope. Means whenever your love shines through the heart, I have a goal.

There is a lot of facts found in love, and in the past I used the time for the sake of finding the meaning. But soon, I’d just know it, whenever you are near me, That if life’s a rhythm, you are as good as the words that is melodious and touching to the heart.

Let it be a song on our pathways that consist only voices of you and me. Together as long as possible. As the meaning is told in a poetry that as long as there’s love naturally there’s hope. Means whenever your love shines through the heart, I have a goal.

There’s a pathway for us to walk side by side and there are voices of you and me. There’s a pathway for us to walk side by side and there are voices of you and me.

prot song krai mah ruk chun tee

i've just found a very nice song from Bangkok Traffic Love Story, "please send someone to love me"

and here is the lyrics

how much longer must I be alone

how many more time I must sigh

how many times must love let me down before you're satisfied

turn on love songs and listen to them by myself

having one-sided love makes me feel so isolated

I look all around me, but there's no one in sight

why does it have to be me?

I comfort myself, it'll be happen someday

I'll meet someone genuine

I keep telling myself that it'll be happen some day

but i have no idea when

please send me someone to love me

its far too cold living like this

I want to know what true love is like

its real isn't it?

please send me my soulmate

so that I won't feel lonely anymore

help me understand

and let me be in love with someone for once

I'm so lonely, I can hardly stand it

I try suppress it, but it never works

I want to know what's it like to love and be loved

I comfort myself, it'll happen someday

I'll meet someone genuine

I keep telling myself that it'll be happen some day

but how much longer must I wait?

sudah besar jadi apa?

kemaren malem, sohib saya berinisial M nelpon , pertama - tama sih dia nanya2 soal cara buat puzzle, tapi terus ngobrol makin ngelantur, jadinya kemana - mana deh...

sampe akhirnya kita ngomongin soal masa depan, jadi apa kita nanti..

mulai darisitu gue mulai mikir gue mesti gimana, langsung kerja ato kuliah, jujur untuk kerja, gue masih belom siap, kuliah? gue mesti kuliah apa? gue interest di desain, tapi gue masih ragu...

cita - cita gue dari dulu sih pramugari, tapi dari bentuk tubuh, gue masih ga yakin..

kalo ga pramugari, paling wo, tapi gue bingung kriteria bisa jadi wo itu apa? jadi gue masih ga tau,

jadi bagi teman2 yang sudah baca blog saya ini boleh kasih komen, gue mesti jadi apa, tengkyuuuu

emak ku

sebenernya semua berawal dari sebuah siang di masa liburan gue..

hari itu, seperti biasa Jakarta yang panas dan bikin gue jadi males ngapa - ngapain, akhirnya gue cuman tidur2an di ranjang nyokap, sambil leha - leha, tiba - tiba nyokap ngomong ...

N = nyokap

G = gue

jadi seperti inilah percakapan saya..

N : 'bosen ya gini terus'

G : (cengo bentar, soalnya jarang2 nyokap ngomong gini, biasanya kan dia ngomel mulu tuh dan kesannya sibuk urus ini itu jadi ga mungkin bgt dia ngomong bosen ) 'hah?bosen gimana?'

N : 'iya, bengong bengong gini, ga ada temen smsan, hape kosong, ga ada yang ajak jalan, ga ada yang telponin, emang kamu ga bosen apa? masih muda ga punya pacar?'

G : 'whatttt?????? (kumat lagi deh emak gue soal kejombloan gue yang dianggap ga wajar diumur gue yang udah 17 taon ini) kaga ah mi, biasa aja, asik2 aje malah'

N : 'kok kamu aneh sih, harusnya kan kamu lagi seneng2ny jalan sama cowok kamu, pergi berdua, ada yang dengerin curhat, blablablabalabalba'

G : (cengo, kok jadi dia yang ribet ngurusin jodoh gue ye?)

N: 'oh, mungkin gara- gara kamu ga pernah pacaran yang beneran ya?

G :(pacaran beneran? emang gue cuma pura2 apa kalo pacaran?emak..emak...)

tapi setelah gue denger omongan dia, emang sih gue ga pernah pacaran 'beneran' yang kaya di sinetron - sinetron entu tuh, yang tiap malem minggu di jemput, ngedate, hahahihi bareng, blablabla

jujur aja sih, dulu gue ngerasa aneh, kayanya rada ga wajar gtu ye anak abg kaya gue ga pacaran padahal umur 17, tapi akirnya gue lelah mikirin itu semua, setelah liat kenyataan yang ada..

PERTAMA

nyari cowo itu susah

susah kalo nyari yang sesuai ama kemauan kita

susah kalo nyari yang bener2 sayang ama kita

susah kalo nyari yang mau terima kita tanpa embel2 'tapi'

KEDUA
gue ga lulus fit & proper test dari cowok2 di edaran

soalnya standar lulusnya tuh, harus CANTIK,anggun, kelakuannya kiyut2 gtu dech,pinter,LANGSING ,status sosial harus ga jauh beda yaa paling engga beda satu tingkatlah

KETIGA

gue udah muak ama kejadian2 lalu yang berhubungan sama 'kisah damn cinta'

pasti ujung2nya malesin, kalo ga ditinggal yaa ditinggal, no more options..

yaa cukup lah 3 alesan aja, kalo mau dilanjutin bisa ga abis

dari alesan2 itu juga, gue jadi inget kejadian si 'dia' , jadi ceritanya, waktu itu 'dia' chat temen gue

D : 'dia'

T : temen gue

isinya:

D : 'eh, tadi masa ada temen cowo gue yang minta nomor si 'itu'(gue)'

T : 'hahaha, cieee cemburu ya?'

D : ' bukan gitu!!! bingung aja ya, kan si 'itu' ga cantik2 amat, kok ada yg mau kenalan?'

T: (langsung diem, males nanggepinnya)

kejadian itu udah lama banget, dan gue baru sadar betapa jahat dan biadab nya si 'dia' dan gue semakin sadar betapa bodohnya gue waktu itu, grrrrr, kalo ada orangnya sekarang, pengen nabok aja jadinya..

tapi ga deng

liat orangnya aja gue udah kabur, ya mungkin bisa dibilang gue trauma liat mukanya, setiap liat dia, gue langsung inget kejadian dia yang amat 'manis' dan bikin asam lambung gue naek, ciiihh..

stop ngomongin dia daripada bikin bete,

tapi emang sih boleh diakuin, emak gue lumayan 9403l, soalnya dia ga kolot dan pikirannya lumayan bebas, tapi apa daya, kenyataan tak memungkinkan..

but..

my mom's rockss