God, it's okay if You don't want me to be with him

but, please God?

would You like to make this feeling vanished and disappear

and my pain gone

at least for now

I can't handle it anymore

it's just too hard

I wish my dreams come true

not the zombie

but you..

im exhausted

my tears

won't rolling down

and it feels really pain

I can't breath

I can't laugh

I can't sleep well

pretending you a monster

you ate my heart and throw it up

so now, I don't have anything left

just me and my sorrow

Tuhan!

saya tidak mau ini terjadi lagi, saya tidak kuat, saya tak sanggup, saya bingung, saya tidak mengerti, saya sudah menyerah, walau ini tak adil, saya mencoba menerimanya.

namun, kali ini saya tidak kuat lagi, saya mohon

ini menyakitkan

menyakitkan

saya kesepian

dream

last night I met you in my dream

dreaming you as mine, and you love me

dreaming you holding my hands, and never leave me

we walked through the night, just two of us, and no one will disturb us

and the most important thing is,

you love me, for everything I am

it's enough for me,

seeing you in my dream..

an old poem

ini adalah puisi yang pernah gue baca pas masih smp, gue lupa judulnya,

puisi,

ajarkan aku

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